Life is weird. Senior year has been weird, definitely not how i expected it to be so farrr. Everything seems so boring, i miss getting excited for stuff but recently there just hasn’t been anything to jump for joy about. I miss the old chanteurs, when I had fun, did what i wanted and stuff like that. I feel obligated to keep myself to together but really, it wouldn’t be the end of the world if i quit. Its not the same, i can’t describe it. There isn’t a day that goes by when i don’t think about the past but i have to keep reminding myself that i’m living in the present. I need to start hanging out with friends outside of choir. It sucks that I’ve missed out on so much stuff, all these hangouts. I’ve drifted away from so many people due to chanteurs and thats probably the one thing i regret most. It might be time to experience other people and travel that road. but i still love ch peeps..its just different. I want to rewind time and do sooooo many things over again, experience different stuff, get a second chance, but its all wishful thinking………….I don’t remember the last time i hung out with someone and really had a good time. like a legit good time. Not this “oh yea it was fun” but like the feeling that you get when you want to do whatever you did, everyday. I guess time will tell…

harusecret:

I SUCK.

not doing essay then. i’m just gonna tell hatheway i couldn’t collect my thoughts.. cause i can’t =,= not in one day

You dont have to write the essay..

HOW TO TICK PEOPLE OFF

1. Leave the copy machine set to reduce 200%, extra dark, 17 inch paper, 99 copies.
2. In the memo field of all your checks, write “for sexual favors.”
3. Specify that your drive-through order is “TO-GO.”
4. If you have a glass eye, tap on it occasionally with your pen while talking to others.
5. Stomp on little plastic ketchup packets.
6. Insist on keeping your car windshield wipers running in all weather conditions “to keep them tuned up.”
7. Reply to everything someone says with “that’s what you think.”
8. Practice making fax and modem noises.
9. Highlight irrelevant information in scientific papers and “cc” them to your boss.
10. Make beeping noises when a large person backs up.
11. Finish all your sentences with the words “in accordance with prophesy.”
12. Signal that a conversation is over by clamping your hands over your ears and grimacing.
13. Disassemble your pen and “accidentally” flip the ink cartridge across the room.
14. Holler random numbers while someone is counting.
15. Adjust the tint on your TV so that all the people are green, and insist to others that you “like it that way.”
16. Staple pages in the middle of the page.
17. Publicly investigate just how slowly you can make a croaking noise.
18. Honk and wave to strangers.
19. Decline to be seated at a restaurant, and simply eat their complimentary mints at the cash register.
20. TYPE IN UPPERCASE.
21. type only in lowercase.
22. dont use any punctuation either
23. Buy a large quantity of orange traffic cones and reroute whole streets.
24. Repeat the following conversation a dozen times.
    “DO YOU HEAR THAT?”
    “What?”
    “Never mind, it’s gone now.”
25. As much as possible, skip rather than walk.
26. Try playing the William Tell Overture by tapping on the bottom of your chin. When nearly done, announce “No, wait, I messed it up,” and repeat.
27. Ask people what gender they are.
28. While making presentations, occasionally bob your head like a parakeet.
29. Sit in your front yard pointing a hair dryer at passing cars to see if they slow down.
30. Sing along at the opera.
31. Go to a poetry recital and ask why each poem doesn’t rhyme.
32. Ask your co-workers mysterious questions and then scribble their answers in a notebook. Mutter something about “psychological profiles.”

These past couple of weeks have been crazy. I can’t believe I’m actually gonna graduate soon. I miss the simplicity of life and how there would be an endless amount of free-time. I hadn’t thought about it much but doing the student data packet made me really find out things about myself. The joy of things is so easily sucked outta me when they aren’t right, meaning someone’s not doing their job correctly or things just aren’t the same. You go into something thinking that it’s going to be amazingly fun when instead it’s surprisingly mundane.

I have a feeling im going to need to use this throughout the year..cause it’s going to be a long one indeedddd.